Carla Hinsey

Growing up was a very difficult thing for me.  I was such a strange little girl.  Every time I was around people I would get scared and almost go into a panic attack.  I was a shy, introverted little girl and didn’t really fit in anywhere and that included my own family.  My 2 brothers were close and I wasn’t a part of that.  They would gang up on me and tease me terribly.  I wasn’t close to my mother and although the family member I gravitated to the most was my father, that relationship was reserved at best.

Before you start feeling sorry for this little girl, let me explain some things.  I am a middle aged woman and spent the bigger part of my adult life searching out my spiritual side.  Along the way I have encountered many teachers that have taught me much about my personal spiritual awareness.   Early in my twenties I consumed every kind of book on the new age and metaphysical teachings.  It didn’t take me long to realize that there was only a limited amount of different information and ideas, after that it really was just one person after another’s opinion on the same ideals.

I discovered over time one of my gifts (and sometimes it feels like a curse) was the ability to become someone’s feelings and thoughts.  In other words, I could feel a person’s thoughts and feelings as if they were my own.

As a young person this was extremely frightening and un-nerving, as I didn’t understand it.  From my studies I discovered that the name for this ability is called being an ‘empath’.  After discovering there was a name for this and it was a real thing, I began to study some of the teachings and learned to control it to the extent that I could mostly shut it off when I wanted to.  I really don’t want to know what’s inside people but with this gift/curse there are times some people’s energy is so over bearing that it is very difficult to shut it off.

When I am in the presence of this type of person, their essence/energy try’s to take over everything near to them.   I can see it as a huge black cloud coming out of that person and trying to engulf me or others in the area.  When you have been around these kinds of people and then walk away, you immediately feel a draining in your own body, sometimes feeling week or sleepy and maybe even dizzy.  I like to call this ability as being a seer or a feeler rather than an empath, as the label ‘empath’ makes me think of all the new age and metaphysical movements of the 80′s.  Actually all of this really is included in the teachings of the old ways, so why people call this stuff ‘new age’ information is beyond me.

I am a descendant of the American Indian (the Blackfoot people) and over the last 20 years, the development of my spiritual self has brought me back to leaning about the old ways.

I now strongly believe that we must go back to the ways of respecting the earth and learning how to live on the earth.  It is time to reconnect to the source of all things and lose our egos and our attachments to material things.

As a very wise man once said:

“All things are connected.  Whatever befalls the earth befalls the sons of the earth. Man did not weave the web of life.  He is merely a strand in it.  Whatever he does to the web, he does to himself.”……….Chief Seattle, 1854

Tags: American Indian, empath

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